Oh what a few weeks it has been
Just after writing my last post everything in life got turned all upside down. My grandfather suffered a massive stroke and for five days our whole family spent all of our time at his bedside.
Five blessed days. He was unconscious the whole time but we knew in spirit, he was there. That time gave us the opportunity to hold his hand, kiss him, tell him all the things we needed to, to celebrate his long life with him at our side still. We cried together, laughed together, looked at pictures, remembered all the memories we have of him. His whole life was devoted to family. He left that legacy for us. That no matter what is happening in the world, we need to center and focus on family.
And so that is what we have been doing. Last Sunday he breathed his last, the day after his 84th birthday. The day after he got one more birthday celebration. (How the man loved birthday's! And food!) We laid him to rest last Friday in a beautiful, tear-filled funeral. We know he is at rest now having lived a well lived life. And we are left here to continue the legacy he left for all of us. With our pictures, our memories and one another.
This weekend was supposed to be one of gradually getting back into routine. Except with the world having been upside down for almost two weeks...that didn't happen. We need to gently ease into routine and I think it's going to take a few days.
So this week is going to be slow. Yesterday was a day spent again with family, outside, celebrating mothers. And taking my new camera for a spin. How I love it!!
Now I need to think about grocery shopping & cooking. Cleaning the house. Spending time outside. Picking up my pen and journal. All those things that make up my life. The life that I love and that I am so happy to be living. Nothing like watching the last few days of someone's life and celebrating that life, to make one turn inwards to take stock of how one is living one's own life!
The death of a loved one just takes the wind out of you - for a long time. Hold on to the wonderful memories you have of him. You will get back to your routine soon enough. Hugs and prayers to you during this difficult time Jen.
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ReplyDeleteI am so sorry about your grandfather and the stress you've been under. It's so sad to lose a family member but I'm glad you were able to be with your family! Glad you are back, I missed you here!
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