Moments

The other night the sunset was amazing. The pink & purples were so deep. There is nothing like a late winters sunset. (Except a summers sunset!) After thinking how beautiful it was, my first thought was "I need to capture this in a picture." So I grabbed my phone and ran from the kitchen window, to the dining room window and then upstairs to the bathroom window and Marie-Therese's window. I was getting frustrated because no matter how hard I tried I couldn't quite get the vibrancy of the colors, or the stunning views I was seeing.

Before I knew it the colors weren't quite so THERE. It was still beautiful but if I wasn't careful I would miss it. Yes I would have seen the colors, the sun setting, but I was on the verge of missing the EXPERIENCE. Of the few moments of entering into the moment, standing there and simply taking in the brilliance of the painted sky.

No matter how beautiful the picture would turn out, nothing compares to being fully in the moment & experiencing it first hand. By rushing up and downstairs I was missing some moments of color, I was missing the opportunity to stand and simply be for a few moments with a beautiful sky. Pictures are wonderful and I won't stop taking them, but I have to recognize that no picture, at any time, will ever capture the true beauty of a moment. Because a picture captures a tiny second of a moment and I want to enter into the whole moment, body and soul. To have the details, the sensations, ingrained into my memory and my body.

When Marie-Therese noticed my frantic running up and down the stairs she went up to her bedroom (she already knows the best view for watching sunsets) and stood there looking out, marveling. She said the sky looked magical and the fairies must be so happy to be dancing out in those colors tonight.

Yes. That is what I to remember. Her description that needed no picture taken. I hope to remember this in the future. Take a picture, then put down the phone or the camera and enter into the moment. Allow my mind and body to capture the experience, they will do a better job at remembering than any picture ever could.

A new day

I sit in the early morning quiet

in the dark, the shadows of the trees---

do I see them? Or simply know they are there?

I look up from the page and suddenly

in only seconds

the sun is there.

A great ball of brightness

soft golden light streaming in

illuminating the journal page

the beams hit softly, enlightening the words.

I watch as the world welcomes the dawn.

What was sleeping moments ago

now is wide awake, greeting this new day

The sun beams waste no time---

green leaves in shadows now glow

the spider's web invisible moments ago,

becomes a stringed instrument the light plays upon

Grass of green has a blanket of yellow leaves

that appear to give off golden heat

In the bath of sun beams I can hear the world exclaim:

a new day

a fresh day

a day of renewal.

This is the suns promise:

today is a new day

Burst forth upon the world

bring your beauty, your talent

and shine along with me

Make the world glow

Enter into this new day,

this new day full of promise and possibility

Awaken now.

Step forth and shine.

This was written as part of Corinne's Writing Naturally course last October. I am planning on sharing a few pieces from that time this week! 

Today

I was going to come here with excuses, reasons for not having blogged. And a list of things I hope to start posting here. But really it boils down to the fact that I have been living life, enjoying my family, spending my on-line time on Instagram, and writing in places other than here (or anywhere on-line really). I decided that 2015 will be the year of writing. Not just getting the words out, I am getting pretty good at that. But of sharing my words, honing my skills, asking for and getting critique on them. And I hope to use this space of mine to do more of that. I was afraid it wouldn't fit in here, but I've never really developed a "theme" and there will still be posts about my girls, or the projects we have done. But my plan is to use this space to put myself out there a bit more, to continue to develop ideas, courses, share the beauty in my world with all of you.

No excuses, no more reasons of why I shouldn't pick blogging back up again, no expectations. Just a natural evolution of things as life flows along. I have decided that today will be the day I stop analyzing everything and begin to put in motion ideas & dreams that have been percolating in my brain for months now. And a big one is to starting writing here again. 

This winter has seemed to be going on for forever. Although when I think about it, it really began barely a month ago. In less than a month we have had two blizzards, at least five other smaller storms, and days upon days of frigid temperatures. Add to the weather that I have had two big sicknesses, the stomach bug went through every single one of us, the girls had colds from December 5 through the start of January and my motivation and get up and go has been missing.

Rather than continue to sit and moan about how I have things I want to do, accomplish I have decided that I will begin making concrete steps to working on those dreams! I look forward to being back here in this space. It feels a bit like coming home after a time away, and at the same time like a fresh start!